Media Pendeja

The other day I posted a little snapshot of a game of scrabble I was playing with my boyfriend and it felt like something I really wanted to share on Instagram. I hadn’t posted anything in over a month and a half, I believe. It was small and in the moment, nothing crazy. And I realized after posting, that I wanted to see who had looked at it. Like it was nothing really that I had shared, and I still wanted to check who had taken a peak.

I just decided to put my phone away and focus on the game because I was actually genuinely enjoying that evening. But now thinking about that, it seems so crazy to people who do post frequently. I’ve never been a popular person on social media, and honestly, I’ve never tried just because it is so much work. I feel better posting every once in a while with details that I truly want to share about my life. I think people are always wanting to post because they are afraid of losing their followers. I don’t know. It’s okay if I lose followers. I don’t like how I act when I constantly am going online to see who is keeping up with me. It’s weird and unnecessary. Not even that, it’s time-consuming. Like I stated, kind of lazy here.

I do feel that is the trend now, posting less and posting better. I hope it stays that way. We don’t have to share every living moment of our life, and I know, I’ve been on that side as well, posting every hour or so on Twitter. I am content talking to a few people that actually take the time to check on me. Even if it’s a total of two people, ha.

And just to clarify, I’m not perfect. I do want to post things that people are interested in and every once in a while I fall into this mindset of “UGH. I should post better things.” It’s only sometimes though, and I have to remind myself that almost everything is fabricated in some sort of way to look better than it is. I’ll take my flaws and post them whenever I’m comfortable sharing them with others.

-IC