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Oh boy. Happy April Fools!

I am in a bit of a struggle. Not big, nothing crazy. I would just like to revamp a bit of my life. As I was speaking in my podcast on Wednesday about wanting to put more effort into how I look, I then looked for things to buy online that would help with that. Welp, turns out things are expensive. Everything is expensive. WHY?!

I generally have never been a big spender, the only real thing that I indulge money in is food. It’s so good, it’s cultural, it’s an entire experience, not just sustenance. But I did want to go and buy myself a nice dress, maybe a bit of makeup, or something else nice ( a wax wouldn’t hurt) ((that much)).

Since my boyfriend and I are currently in saving mode, I don’t know, it just feels selfish. We’re going to be spending on big things soon and I would feel a bit guilty. Beautiful, but of course, still guilty. So I am doing the classic, wait and see if you still want *insert product here* before you buy it.

I even asked my boyfriend what he thought about me buying a dress and he said it was fine. Please note, I wasn’t asking permission to buy something, I was asking if the dress was cute and if I should purchase it given our situation and our goals. I got a very supportive, one dress won’t make or break us response which did help me feel better, but not enough to pull the trigger. I’m going to give it a bit of time. Make a pros/cons list, prioritize what I may really need or want and purchase with more thoughtfulness. If I’m being honest, the wax is probably the thing I’m needing the most.

We’ll see. I know saving money isn’t everything, but it’s almost like my superpower. I am so good at talking myself out of purchasing things for the sake of continuing to hold onto money. It’s a blessing and a curse really. I haven’t done anything fun in like 3 years. I wish I was kidding. Anyway, I know this isn’t supposed to be a financial blog or anything of the sort, I was just wanting to share where I’m at right now.

If anyone has any tips on how to balance out when to spend on what you don’t need… and God, please do not get back to me about budgeting, let me know. I know budgeting works, but I’d rather find something a little bit more fluid, that helps me moves things around. We’ll see, maybe I’ll fall victim to the spreadsheet. But that’s it for today, if you god paid today, set some aside for the savings account. If you don’t have one today, maybe start thinking of one?

-IC